A Non-Reciprocal Love

I wish I could get close to you,

I wish I could sit beside you,

Look into your eyes,

And open up to you.

But I simply can't,

I can't even talk.

You take my words away,

Wash all of it all away.

And the only thing left,

Is the urge to kiss you,

And hold you,

And do imaginable things with you.

Every night,

I dream of you,

We sit on a bench and talk about anything and everything.

From favorite colours to fears, and all in between.

We are in a pier, looking at the stars,

You teaching me the constellations,

And I am telling you about my favorite books.

I dream,

And wish with all my heart,

That all of it could be possible,

But it is not,

Not possible.

Day dreaming as I pass by your class,

Glance inside to see you,

You look up, our eyes lock.

You smile...

And I freak out,

I love how your eyes light up when you smile,

How you blushed when I gave you that bracelet,

I love how you tap the pencil when you are thinking,

How you try to disguise your laugh and the corner of your mouth lifts up,

I love you at every glance and movement you make.

You are the reason I get up every morning and smile.

I am a fool for wondering the halls waiting for an opportunity to pass you by,

To see you,

To hear your voice say my name,

And feel the chills everytime you say it like that.

And I go mad,

Again, that urge,

I wanna kiss you,

And hold you,

And do imaginable things with you.

We can't be together.

So I don't wanna ruin what we already have,

So I cry,

And dream day and night,

Of what we could be if things were different.

I prefer to be somewhat close to you,

Then to hold you, only to never see you again.

I wish that you loved me,

I wish, I could ask you to wait for me,

And steal kisses every lunch in the bathroom.

Everyday testing new things,

Feeling new things,

Discovering new things.

Be my forest, I want to find you,

And see the beautiful and scary parts of you,

Amazing me in every turn I take,

Every patch of light and shadow special,

Every exotic fruit you give,

Every color you hold,

I wish I could see it.

Danger has never seemed so sweet,

Until now,

Until you came along,

You are dangerous and I love it.

I love you.