Keep it in

My life, my soul, my mind,

All breaking apart and falling to the ground,

No matter how much I try,

The house of cards come tumbling down.

I feel myself distancing,

And my tears surfacing,

My body shaking from trying to keep it all in,

My body cold, all warmth gone.

Nothing matters anymore,

I am too far from the shore,

Or at least that's what I've been telling myself,

I don't want to hurt, but it hurts nonetheless,

I fight to keep it in, but when I am alone,

I cry and scream, all rushing out like a river stream,

And in the end, it is all I can do to not let the dark win.